I HAVE EXPERIENCED CHRISTIAN PHYSICAL DEATH, Part 1

(Deut. 19:15, Matt. 18:16, 2Cor. 13:1, 1Tim. 5:19, Heb. 10:28 & Rev. 11:3) All through the Bible is the instruction there must be at least two witnesses to prove the truth of an event. There were two witnesses to the physical aspects of the following situation, one to the time and one to the condition, which proved beyond doubt, this spiritual event really happened.

My oldest son, Jimmie, told me; "Dad, I'm nineteen years old. I've been in school thirteen years. I've finished one year of college. I want to go to the Marines like you did. Let me out of my promise to go to college after high school and I promise you I'll finish when I get back home." Of course I agreed; he would learn nothing if I held him to his promise and he became an unwilling student.

So, he joined the Marines. My wife was the baby daughter from a huge family and her brothers and sisters, their children and their grandchildren lived scattered across a two county area. Jimmie decided to visit a different family of aunts, uncles and cousins each night for the two weeks before he shipped out to boot camp. Jimmie's old beat up car was disabled so his good friend decided to drive Jimmie in the evenings.

That particular Sunday night, March 25, 1990, we went to bed as usual; the four of us held hands and said our prayer then we went to bed; my wife and I in our bedroom and our other two sons in their bedroom. I went to bed happy because my sons were saved and they had participated in church services that day. Jimmie was filled with a strangely beautiful happiness I had never seen before.

Several people at church had commented about how good Jimmie looked and how he had such a special radiant glow about him. I had noticed it too but I had dismissed it as his excitement about going on his upcoming Marine Corps adventure. It never entered my thoughts he was going much further, much faster, for a longer time than I could have ever imagined.

I am never aware of going to sleep; I think, then I don't think and I am asleep. Suddenly, weirdly, I was in the back of an auto. I had the sense I was somehow bodiless because I had no awareness of my body. There was no sensation of my feet on the floor of the car, I couldn't touch the back of the front seat, there was no sensation of sitting on the seat; I was somehow an observer without a body.

I was looking directly at Jimmie. He had slid forward a bit on the front seat, his right hand was on the dash, his left hand was gripping the front edge of the front seat, and he was facing the driver. I personally did not feel any emotion, nothing! Strangely enough I could feel Jimmie's great alarm, he was straining and he shouted; "Look out, Scott." I had been in auto wrecks and I know the sound, the skidding and grinding and the crashing impact. There was none of that in this situation.

There was simply the straining, the emotional alarm, and his voice; "Look out, Scott!" Then someone and I were wrapped around each other; intertwined with an odd boneless, somehow fleshless flexibility. There was the vague feeling something protective, maybe like arms, somehow shielded us. I had a sudden impression the other person and I were coming out of an abdomen and we were out; it happened very fast, almost like a gentle whoosh but soundless.

It was Jimmie and me! Jimmie and I were on a black surface, on our knees, but I felt no sensation of roughness on our knees. Jimmie knelt there, leaning forward, with his hands on the front of his thighs. I was right beside him, on his left side facing the left side of his head and my face was no more than two feet from the side of his head. I sensed Jimmie did not know I was there.

I knew everything he was thinking and I felt every emotion he felt and, at the same time, my thoughts and emotions were entirely separate from his. Write something with a pencil on a piece of paper then color over it with a magic marker. Both are plain to see and do not interfere with each other; that's what both our thoughts and emotions were like inside me.

I personally felt no alarm or sadness, just a great wonder, an awe. Out of my peripheral vision I could see a nude body lying on its back with its feet toward us. Through Jimmie's eyes I could see the body plainly and the living, unmarked Jimmie I was looking at was looking at his own body. That body on the ground was burst, broken and torn.

Jimmie's emotions and thoughts were as fast as thought, like a blink. Jimmie's emotion was that breathless, emotional surge like a jarring in his chest that we all get during emotional upheaval and his thoughts were; "Oh God; what awful wounds!" Another emotional surge; "They're going to kill me!" Another emotional surge; "I am dead; but I'm not dead!" Another surge; "But I didn't hurt!" Strangely enough neither of us felt alarm or sadness; just surprise and wonder. Jimmie, I, nor we had felt death! Jimmie had changed but he had not died!

Suddenly a third person was there! He was standing on the other side of Jimmie, just a little behind him. I could not see Him but I could feel Him; oh how I could feel Him! I have never felt anything like that in my life and I knew it was Jesus!

His presence was not simply around us; He was within us; all through us; He was immersed within us as well as surrounding the whole situation. Jesus was everywhere. Jimmie was filled with a swelling, thrilling, gladness and he forgot everything but the Presence; there was no room for anything else. Jesus' soul flooded us, and filled us, and surrounded us with an unutterable gladness.

There was humor; not the ribald or raucous kind we know so well. This humor was bold and happy; the kind of happy that wraps its arms around you and wishes you the best day you've ever had; and we knew He was giving us that day right now. There was kindness, happiness and tenderness in the sense He was greeting Jimmie.

Jesus was filled with anticipation to take Jimmie with Him and to show Jimmie what He was going to show him. But most of all there was love. My words are pitifully feeble and woefully inadequate and completely unable to describe Jesus. His magnificent love was of such power and intensity it was impossible to feel fear, worry, or any badness whatsoever; there wasn't even a thought of anything bad; it was impossible for bad to exist in the presence of the Master of forever.

I had the distinct impression nothing could ever be needed or wanted in Jesus' presence because He is all of everything. Jesus' love was filled with the joy of being, and the joy of loving, and the joy of giving and of endless capacity; it was timeless and all encompassing. Jimmie was consumed with the same glorious emotional astonishment and gladness as I. Jimmie and I met GRACE in person there in the night. I could not see Jesus.

Jimmie started to look back over his right shoulder toward Jesus and I was thrilled beyond measure because I knew I was actually going to see Jesus through Jimmie's eyes.

I woke up from where I had been with the distinct impression of catching my breath like I had not been breathing! I thought or maybe even mumbled it; "Wow, I've never had a Vietnam dream like that!" I became aware the house had gotten cool. We used a Hawke coal stove in the living room and the fire had gone down a little.

The cover was down under my wife's arm and her arm and neck were cold. I raised up on one elbow a bit so I could cover her arm and tuck the cover around her neck and I noticed it was 11:05 PM. I lay back and in the few seconds I was awake I felt warm, safe and content.

I was jarred awake by my wife standing at the foot of the bed screaming the Sheriff and Coroner were at the door. They were old friends, also Christian brothers, and she had called them by name instead of title. Though older than me I had known the Sheriff since school. I jumped out of bed, jerked on my trousers and ran down the hall with my wife right behind me. When my wife had answered the door they had asked for me and she had simply turned and ran to the bedroom.

They had come on in and were waiting in the living room; old friends in a familiar house; and awful misery was on their faces. I noticed the big wall clock behind the Sheriff said 12:30AM. I stopped about four feet from the Sheriff and our eyes were locked but he couldn't say it. It was an eternal moment.

I could only whisper: "Is it about Jimmie?" He said; "Yes." "Has he been in a wreck?" "Yes." "Is it a bad one?" "It's real bad, Buddy!" "Is he dead?" He nodded in the affirmative and mumbled; "Yes." Our world shattered and would never be the same again in this life.

A while later; after family had come to tend my wife and sons, I asked the Sheriff the details. Jimmie's friend had lost control of his car on a curve because they were speeding far too fast. He had started that over correction struggle that lasted on into a long straight stretch of road; off the road, on the road, off the road, back on, over and over; never quite regaining control. A tractor trailer was coming in the opposite direction. The driver locked the brakes when he saw the wreck happening and the truck slid one hundred feet in a straight line.

The car came back on the highway at a ninety degree angle to the truck and impacted the tractor fuel tank on the driver's side. The impact jerked the car around in the same direction the truck was going and the inertia was so great Jimmie's body tore the car door off and Jimmie went under the tandem wheels on the back of the tractor.

The impact caused the tractor to jack-knife and it and it's trailer traveled eighty-five more feet with Jimmie under the wheels. After the emergency responders got the truck jacked up and had gotten Jimmie's body out, the ambulance attendants had put his body in a body bag and were in a local hospital parking lot awaiting instructions.

The Pastor of our church was part owner of a funeral home and worked there. I asked the Sheriff to ask him to accept Jimmie's body and conduct the funeral. I was in an awful, pain drenched numbness, operating in a slow quagmire of shock. I was soul wounded nearly unto death. I believe the Marine combat experience helped me somehow slog through the motions of instructing, choosing, selecting and answering while I was immersed in a swirling sea of pain.

Monday and Tuesday afternoons and evenings were the viewing and wake. My Pastor had instructed me to stand beside Jimmie the whole time and to not let anyone touch Jimmie's body because "he might start coming apart"; there was that much damage to my precious, precious son's body.

Otherwise it would have been a closed casket wake and funeral and I knew my wife could never stand that; so I stood there hour, after hour, after hour; tears pouring endlessly down my face, being hugged and hugging, loving and being loved by an endless line of people; explaining to them through my tears and dying inside. So much was happening so fast I never even thought "in depth" thoughts about the supernatural event that had involved me in the wreck and its aftermath.

An odd thing happened during that time. One of Jimmie's friends, a paramedic, told me he was a couple of hundred feet behind the tractor trailer and saw the wreck developing. He slammed on his brakes and stopped until it was over then he drove his car up to the wreck and got out to see if he could help.

He said, due to his medical training, he glanced at his watch and it was exactly (1st witness) 11:06 PM. Jimmie was obviously dead under the wheels, the truck driver was in shock, so he helped Jimmie's friend who had been driving the car because he was terribly injured. He was transported to a major hospital in West Virginia and he lived.

I had wondered about my out of body experience the night my son was killed but I didn't dare tell anyone. Jimmie's funeral was Wednesday. That night after the funeral I told my wife and remaining sons about it but there was disbelief in their eyes and silence from their lips.

I didn't mention it again until five weeks later. We had gone to church every Sunday because I had seen so many people start blaming God for things like that and I did not want that to happen to my family. It happened to my wife anyway. "If God is so good why did He let my baby get killed?"

After church was over on that fifth Sunday after Jimmie's funeral I told my friend, our Pastor, I needed to talk to him after church. In his study I told the story of my out of body experience with Jesus and Jimmie and I described the wounds on Jimmie's body that Jimmie and I had seen. The Pastor's mouth fell open in astonishment when I described the wounds.

When I was finished he quietly said; "Son, when they got Jimmie out from under that truck they could tell he was dead by the condition of his head and they put him in a body bag just the way he was. I'm the man that cut off his clothes; those heavy Levis, his heavy flannel shirt and undershirt, the leather bomber jacket and his boots."

"I'm the one who worked, and sewed, and sewed, and straightened, and filled so you could have your open casket funeral. (2nd witness) Nobody else saw Jimmie's injuries. I'm the only human on earth that saw those wounds and you've described them completely and accurately! I don't know why; but God let you be there!" I went out to the car and my family with my head down, tears streaming.

I got Pastor's statement; "I don't know why; but God let you be there!" in my thoughts and it wouldn't go away. That statement and the questions it engendered gnawed at me.

I'm not a super Christian! If it can be messed up I'm just the person to do it! I am truly the most unprofitable servant of all of God's servants! So, why me? Why would God give me this wonderful experience with my son that, as far as I know, no other man has ever had? Why me? I sure didn't deserve it! I'm not special! All I have ever been is a nuisance to God; so, why me?

It was months later when I found the answer and, of course, it was in the Bible. (2Cor. 12:9) Jesus said; "My grace is sufficient for thee: my strength is made perfect in weakness." (Paul said) "Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me."

Well praise God! He gave me that "extra" because I'm so weak. In His tender pity and kindness He knew my son's death would have destroyed my soul spiritually. In His power God gave me that "extra" so I would have a fair chance. He brought me up on a level with stronger people to be fair to me. I weep and rejoice that God loves me like He does.

One day, a couple of weeks after the funeral, I was at work; I'd only been allowed three days off for the arrangements, wake and funeral. Words suddenly started going through my soul. I was panic stricken I would lose those words from my memory.

I had a stub of a pencil in my pocket and I wrote the words on a steel power pole in the electric company substation where I was working that day. I didn't realize they were burning permanently into my soul. God, in the tender beauty of His endlessly loving soul, wrote the words of Jimmie's life in my heart.

 

FOREVER NINETEEN

 

Just as a small boy Jesus touched his heart;

 

He saved him so tender, Jimmie chose the best part.

 

And Jesus He loved him through Jimmie's short years;

 

He loved him through failures and helped him through tears.

 

Then death set up a roadblock, Jimmie could not get by;

 

and they came and told us that Jimmie had to die.

 

But I know what happened on that lonely night;

 

the Master was present to hold Jimmie tight.

 

And when it was over Jesus took him away;

 

to live in that dear sweet land of one endless day.

 

He's forever nineteen in a world without sin;

 

he's living with Jesus, his very best Friend.

 

 

There are no words, in any language of the whole world that can properly describe the endless magnitude of God's love and grace. I can only hump up like a helpless child and accept God's wonderful gifts from His store of perfect plenty. I sometimes feel so sad I have no precious, perfect, one of a kind gift, including myself, to lay at the feet of the God of glory; you see; I am only a destitute beggar and I have nothing except what He has already given me.

I am blessed beyond measure to have the perfect and beautiful knowledge I will look into my son's smiling blue eyes again, we will laugh together, we will hug each other and there will be no sign or memory of our wounds.

Now I truly understand what Jesus meant when He said; (John 11:26) "And whosoever liveth and believeth in me shall never die. Believest thou this?" BECAUSE: (Heb. 2:9-14 esp. V.9 &11) (V.9) "But we see Jesus, who was made a little lower than the angels for the suffering of death, crowned with glory and honor; that he by the grace of God should taste death for every man."

Then that is clarified in (verse 11) in that Jesus tasted death for "they who are sanctified" which means (Rom. 8:13-17) God's children (Acts 11:26) and we are called Christians. AND: (John 8:39-59 esp. V.51) "Verily, verily (truly, truly), I say unto you, If a man keep my saying, he shall never see death."

THAT'S IT: A Christian who lives and believes in Jesus will not have to suffer dying in this life (Rev. 20:10-15 esp. V. 10 keywords: into the lake of fire- and shall be tormented for ever and ever) and that Christian will not eternally die in the fire and never get the dying accomplished in his eternal life like non-Christians. That's why there was no physical sensation of dying when Jimmie passed from this life to the next one in the gentle protection of Jesus. My Pastor passed on a few years ago and I'm sure he experienced the same thing.

NOTE: Maybe part of the reason God let me experience all this is because He knew I would share it with you when He told me to make this website fifteen years later. I do know, for a fact, this experience has helped other people find some peace and closure. It was one of those oddly beautiful things God does when my Pastor's (the mortician) blood-kin youngest brother and his wife had their Darling Daughter taken in a car wreck in 2011.

I wish you could have been there to see it when the Holy Spirit took the truth of this event into their Christian souls. I wish you could have seen the dawning understanding and relief in his eyes and I wish you had been there to see his wife smile again when the peace from God entered her soul. I know, for sure, this experience has helped a lot of Christian families understand their loved ones passing in the arms of Jesus. END OF NOTE.

In Part 2 is given the how, who, what, why, where and when God set up this marvelous event for His Christians. They are listed as Part A, Part b and Part C with the scriptural references given.

PLEASE REMEMBER THIS: There are ignorant people who think children who die young must experience the salvation event before they can go to heaven. Please go to the commentary, Is God Fair, on this website and you will scripturally see how God's mercy extends far beyond our greatest imagining. You can see your Darling again.

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